Worrying and Unsure

Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time.
— Louis C.K. 

Untuk yang kesekian kalinya I'm talking about last year high school. It's hard, seriously. Okay, I know for some people that already passed this step will think "Hey itu belum seberapa dibandingkan dengan kehidupan selepas SMA nanti, itu lebih keras" Yeah I know.. but... ah I don't know.

I'm worry all the time. Will I doing well in national exam? Will I get good scores? Can I enter the top universities? Is my choices right? How if that not match with my passion? How if I lost my path? My dream will come true if I work hard isn't it? I think I will keep posting about this thingy until I get 'em all.

I'm Rejecting a Scholarship..

Hello October! Right now, many things running across my mind and I dunno how to write it down. Ok, so first thing I wanna tell ya is: I just finished a full week of Midterm Test yuhuuu! Yea I feel relieved at least a little of my burden released. But.. I'm not fully relieved. Somehow I feel I still didn't do my best, even I already sacrificed my sleep to that and now left me with this panda eyes._. I'm afraid if the result come far from what I expect. Okay I know it just midterm, its not that important maybe. But for me it was the first step, first step to my future. And my first step to change my study habit.

And last week, September 29th to be exact, I try my luck with joining President University Scholarship Test 2014. Even it just trying, deep in my heart I really wishing I could accepted there with full scholar. Multicultural international environment and the internship program really attract me. And Tadaaah here's the result: