Hidup gak selalu diatas right? Hidup ga bisa cuma jalan di
comfort zone doang kan? Ada waktu ketika something gettin' you down. Not
something big actually, but it hit me hard enough.
I realized it now, I was sooo selfish, spoiled and whatever
you called it. Hey girl wake up! It just small problem!
Yea, that was happened in the beginning of this 11th grade.
Separated from my friends, entered to a class with no friends I know well,
somehow feels like strangers in new town. That made me really really down,
frightened, and lost spirit. I did anything that can make me back to them, move
to a better one. But the result nothing. Haha I knew its stupid. It’s already
happened, I could not do anything as I want.
That time, I felt these was my worst part in my life. I
could not think anything else. For about two months I just come to school, sit,
listen, go home and stay silent. There was no motivation. But I realized I can’t do it everyday. I just
wasted my time, my high school periods. I must enjoy it however (even until I write
this, middle school still the best periods ever)
As the time fly, I trying to make friends, trying to be open-minded. They’re not bad as I think, eventho not the best, they’re a nice
and kind friends, random, absurd and cheerful type of friends. I’m grateful
they accept me in their neighborhood. Kan ga semua orang pikirannya bisa sejalan sama kita. Ga semua orang juga bisa ngertiin kita. Understanding is the most needed for now. I try to accept all of this. Not everyone is in harmony with himself, and not everyone treats himself as a friend, although he may think so, Imam Al Ghazali said.
And about my
other friends, the most importance we not lost contact. I’m overacted. We still
in same school, we still can hang out together, chat and do anything other than
class. I’m not losing them. Not now and forevaaa.
Value of a friend is priceless, fyi.
Gue sadar, berarti selama ini gue bodoh, egois dan
closed-minded banget. Gue terlalu takut untuk membuka diri, masuk di sesuatu
yang baru. Gue terlalu nyaman sama apa yang ada. Ini Cuma masalah kecil, gue
udah berlebihan banget. Hidup gue masih punya banyak step ke depannya, ini cuma
langkah kecil dan gue udah berlebihan gini mengatasinya. Astaga gue malu
sendiri. Orang lain punya masalah yang lebih berat dari gue. Walaupun kadang,
gue masih suka berfikir, Andai... Seandainya gue... dan semacamnya.
God created this for my better tomorrow, so I can learn from this. I must be grateful, not everyone had this experience.
Thanks everyone, you made me experienced something new.
It’s a practice for a real hard life
tomorrow in future. Fighting!
For now, just enjoy what I have, and prove to them I can walk
over it.
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